This week has been a mixed bag so far.

My shit is more together but I didn't go to all my classes. lol. I'm sick again though and that's my excuse. Plus yesterday was my birthday. I bought a beer at lunch and the guy didn't even card me. Which was lame. My friend Amanda took me out to dinner (after my three hour long Chemistry lab, stab me in the eye please) for margaritas which was fun. For some reason I do feel more grown up. I've passed over that threshold and now I'm truly an adult who is about to leave home and make her own way in the world. Weird. But anyway. Today I'm going to get some writing done. WOOT! I've had the first chapter outlined forever. And I've had the first part of it written since last april but I'll probably rewrite it so I'll put a piece of it here for you. A little teaser.

I have tropical fish. They’re pretty to look at and they don’t talk back. Vibrant hues of blue, violet and green, a classic black and white with a hint of gold, an orange with fiery red flecks; they love me because I feed them. There’s nothing complex about our relationship. Their tank is huge, covering a whole wall of my loft’s living room. They're always in the mood for whatever record I happen to put on. Therefore have developed the same taste in music. They don’t care if I have secrets because even if I told them all the intimate details they’d forget it in about two point five seconds. Having a secret life doesn’t lend itself to great relationships.
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Whadda ya think? :D
And now I'm gong to be late for English. Damn. Peace out!

I'm not doing so great...

keeping up with my classes. I'm under a lot less stress with less to do but herein lies the bane of my existence. When I have a lot to do I get more done but with way more stress and then I end up going to pieces like I did a little over a week ago. So I quit doing so much prioritizing better however I end up using all the new time I've created poorly. Damn it. I need someone other than this blog to complain to. I bet other writers don't whine this much on their blogs. Oh well. It's an integral part of my personality (sadly) so readers should learn to find it endearing. I don't do it excessively but it's part of my coping mechanism. Anyway. I also had plenty of time to write this weekend and didn't. Fuck. I need to get my shit together. Together is my shit getting together week whereas last week was my dicking around and doing nothing week. I'm going to go to all my classes, catch up on my school work and write for at least three hours. No more screwing around. Well maybe just a little bit because my birthday is this week but most of that kind of screwing around will occur this weekend when I'm back in Houston.

Just today and tomorrow until I'm 21!!!! I should read up on wine selection. I like mostly rieslings or sweeter white wines OR fruitier red wines. lol. Now I just need to figure out which are which at the store. Woot!

No FenCon for me.

I haven't finished the new story I wanted to send. I don't want to send the Merlin story again, I feel like it's bad form to send the same story to three workshops in a row. Plus I seriously can't afford the workshop at FenCon right now. It's $35 on top of the regular membership that's $70. I'm still gonna go but just as a convention going not a workshopper. That makes me kinda sad but this is my last week of summer school and somehow I need to make myself focus on finishing my classes. Trying to write a story during that just won't work. It's ok though. Because I really like where the Shep story is going and I don't want to rush it.

AND!!!! FenCon will be my birthday weekend. You better believe I'm going to panels hungover. :D I need to bring someone with me to be my keeper. lol. Hey I'll be 21. You're supposed to engage in debauchery on your 21st birthday!! No I won't really be that bad. I'm just trying to cheer up because I can't do this workshop. It's ok! I'm going to work on querying those Wainscot essays to Strange Horizons. Oh and they might want to publish my Merlin story eventually too. Because I didn't know but a fellow workshop attendee from ApolloCon pointed out to me that they're interested in Hypertext stories. Which the Merlin Story very well could be. I wish I could get an artist to do a picture for the newspaper for me. Maybe I'll try to find one sometime soon.... Who do I know that's an artist?