Other people's vacation pictures...

are really the worst. Especially when I hear all about people who did study abroad over the summer or my sorority sister who's family has a chateau in Paris so she took classes there. I'm really stinking tired of hearing about other people's fabulous trips. I'm about to be 21 and I've realized that I haven't been anywhere really. *Sigh* I think my caffeine headache is making me irritable. I should go to bed early, I also need to quit skipping classes. Very bad. This weekend I'm going to get a lot of writing done. Fiction as well as getting started on my research papers and! the application I'm working on for a public policy internship in Austin next semester. I think it would be fun plus get me the hell out of college station.

I had a really awesome dream the other night that would be a great idea for a YA series I think. I actually remembered to write it down when I woke up too. Haha. I've never done that before. I even drew a picture of something I remembered seeing the dream that I thought was cool. It was very interesting. Have you ever written about something you saw in a dream?
(I have a feeling this question will be rhetorical. But I'm pretending like I'm already an author and people think the things I have to say are interesting. I'm practicing blogging and promoting myself. lol. PR campaigns can never be started too early I think.)

RAWR!! I hate America and I hate people who love America.

I can't even begin to type all the things that bother me DEEPLY about American politics and rhetoric. So I won't bore you with another long rambly, rant driven post. I'll just say this America is not perfect, we do not have a RIGHT to rule the world economically, and although we say we're helping make the world a better place, we're simply not. If we use rhetoric like that we need to back it up. I think America is one of the most dishonest countries around. We use all this false rhetoric and create monsters of it like the red scare (which still pervades today). We don't back it up and we stand by and do nothing when those things happen. I'm starting to rant again. Basically I had another revelation today of how much I do NOT belong at A&M. I can't wait for the next two semesters to be over any quicker. I'm stifled here. I did not want to debate this guy in my American Foreign Relations class today but my professor insisted that I rebut him. At least the professor backed me up.
I think I need to think more seriously about moving abroad. Is it harder? Yes. Might I be happier? I don't know. I really don't know where life will take me but if I talk all the time about how I don't like how America does things maybe I should move abroad. I mean Terry Prachett is British. Aren't their foreign publishing houses that would publish my fiction? *sigh* It's been mentioned by people to me before and I think I need to think more seriously about doing some of my graduate work abroad.
Is it really A&M that's stifling me or is it really America itself? Wow. Big realization. I dunno where this big adventure of life is going to take me.